In a Fog

Hi folks,

Please understand, this is not a ploy for sympathy, nor is it me making excuses. I’m just trying to express where I’ve been the past couple of weeks. One of our beloved dogs died in our arms of a heart attack, and I’ve been lost in a fog ever since.

Yes, a fog, a fog of grief. A big piece of my daily life is missing. I often find myself just gazing mindlessly into space, unable to focus, to hold a single thought before it evaporates into oblivion. I see him from the corner of my eye, or will suddenly realize that sound isn’t him breathing beside my chair.

We had a snowfall and yesterday was the first time in twelve years we’ve gone for a walk in the snow without him. It was different. The others dogs snuffled about, enjoying the day, and I confess I did too, but as I called them in, I almost called his name and yes, I did look for one more.

I have three more dogs, all old, and I am well aware that this will happen again all too soon. However, this is a pack of rescues, I knew this day would come, and will come again all too soon. I knew this when we rescued them, and I know we will do it again.

I also know I have to pull myself out of this and get back to work. I am trying.


15 thoughts on “In a Fog”

  1. AmyShojaiAmyShojai

    I'm so very sorry. That feeling–being in a fog–is a normal response, and it sucks. I pray that soon that fog will give way for the happy memories. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    November 30, 2014
  2. myrandommusemyrandommuse

    Many hugs. It is never easy to lose a bit of our heart. I still look for the dogs I've lost over the years, and still think of them often — sometimes with tears, sometimes with laughs. I have a group of 'seniors' here, myself, and each day with them is a blessing. The fog will lift in its own time.

    November 30, 2014
  3. John HoltonJohn Holton

    So sorry to hear about your dog! Pets have such a limited time with us, and when they die they leave a huge hole in your heart. Even if you don't realize it right away.

    November 30, 2014
  4. RebeccaRebecca

    So sorry for your loss. Hugs to you and your family!

  5. shannonshannon

    Aw, Pru 🙁 I'm so sorry for your loss. You have to give yourself time to grieve without guilt. I wish I could say something that would ease that sadness, but I know from experience only time can do that. (((hugs))) to your whole pack. xoxo

  6. MarcyMarcy

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been there. Our pets become members of our family, and so it's devastating to lose them.

  7. Karen McFarlandKaren McFarland

    Oh Pru, I am so sorry to hear this. And you're not the only one that misses him. Your other furry friends notice too. It's going to take a while to adjust. I'm glad you got a chance to go for a walk amongst the snow and nature. That sometimes can be very healing. Hang in there girl.

  8. K.B. OwenK.B. Owen

    Oh Pru, I'm so sorry about your beloved pup. Sounds like he had a very happy life with you and his pack-mates. Hugs. <3

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